This is the first time i ever had this feeling.
A feeling of total sadnees and disappointment.
Somehow, i think ive change.
If its the normal me, i would have made a big fuss.
And by now? We will be quarelling way big time!
But no. I kept quiet. I cried to myself.
Now im telling myself, nvr put too much hope on something.
Something that i knew it may not turn out well.

Ive changed seriously.
Its not good having too much hope.
From today onwards, i will write my troubles here.
But im not going to let them affect me too much.
I want to concentrate on my studies.
I said it, and i mean it.
Maybe... we need time.

(9.22pm)